Friday, November 12, 2010

Our special Wednesday

It had been (sigh) one of those weeks by Tuesday! But on Wednesday, I had such a BEAUTIFUL day! It was a blessing from God. I had been running on empty and was feeling quite burnt out. Wednesday I got up early, showered and had my coffee. As I was waiting for a daycare family to arrive, they called and said they were not coming because one of the kids was sick. Even though the others were fine, they wanted to make sure not to spread it. (I am SO thankful that I have daycare parents who are incredibly considerate!) So what was going to be a day with 7 kids turned into a day with 4 - my three and one more. ( Now I love my daycare kids, but YAY! We can all fit into the van!!!) We were going SOMEWHERE!!!!
We had a relaxing morning, eating a later breakfast and watching a few cartoons. Then we headed off  to pick up lunch and met Mirzet at a park near his work. It was so fun to sit and hold his hand and watch the kids play. Then we ran around on the playground with them a bit and then he headed back to work.
 I then took the kids to Como. Now all of our trips to Como this year have been DISASTERS! Every time there have been trillions of people there, no parking and crabby kids by the time we get in.
This time was PERFECT!
We were able to zip around and look at all the animals. The animals must have been missing people, because they were all ready to perform. Sparky had his nose up to the glass giving kisses and high fives to the kids. The penguins were jumping and sliding, the spider monkeys swinging, the giraffes had two babies....even the lion gave us a head nod! :) The kids got to watch without being rushed or crowded. No one cried or fussed and the sun was so warm.
God knew we needed that day. It sounds so simple, a lunch and the park and a quick trip to the zoo, but it was so relaxing. Later Mirzet asked me how a trip to the zoo with 4 kids could be relaxing, but it was! Sometimes you have those days when things just WORK! And I am so thankful for those days, because it was fuel for me. I say all this to tell you, take advantage of those rare moments with your kids, to do something for them! Give them memories of now, when they are small, that they can someday look back on. Of a day away from the daily grind. Let them see the real you, not the stressed mom or strict mom, but the mommy who knows how to have fun. Who will go down that twirly slide, (even though its a little tight!) Who will try to swing on the monkey bars or hold their feet so they can go across. Who will lay in the leaves and look at the sky and talk to them or find cloud pictures.
I know I have the tendency to get caught up in my list. Even story time can sometimes be another thing on the to do list. Let them see YOU. I felt wonderful after my Wednesday. Ready to face the rest of the week with gusto and enthusiasm. God knows when you need a break, and he just might make it happen. If it does, put it to good use!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

My first day as a blogger

"Mommy! Please wipe my bottom!"
"Miss Tiff - he hit me!"
"May I be excused please?"
"Could you please help me wash my hands?"
"I want more pancakes!"
"Whoops! Kubby spilled his milk!"

I rush from task to task, all the while running down the mental checklist, trying to ignore Zari's cries for food since she just ate at 6 and for Pete's sake its only 7:48 am!

"Love is patient; love is kind; Lord, give me STRENGTH!" My constant prayers cycle through my head along with my checklist as one by one I deal with each childs needs and begin cleaning up from breakfast.

This is my day...RUSHING!!!!!! Where do we as moms find QUIET? Where do we find PEACE? Where do we find GOD?

Jeremiah 29:12-13
"Then you will call my name. You will come to me and pray to me and I WILL LISTEN TO YOU. You will search for me. And when you search for me you will find me. I will let you find me," says the Lord.

Ahhhh....devotions. You know what fellow mommys - you HAVE TO MAKE TIME!!!!! Get up earlier! Ridiculous I know - you got to bed at 11:30,  were up 10 times with the baby,  and have someone pulling on your leg at 6:20. I know! I understand! And yet.....

"He who fails to seek God in the morning, will scarcely find Him the rest of the day." Unknown

How do we balance everything? How do we not only get those kids ready, out the door if need be, keep a clean house, prepare healthy (or instant ;P) meals, teach and train our children in the way they should go, give our husband a little lovin', get the shopping / homework / sports done?


We cant!

Unless we have a little bit of extra power! You cannot do everything you need to do -  with a smile on your face and in your heart, being an example to those little eyes and ears that absorb everything.


Guess what - I - Me - Tiffany - Struggle with alot of things. Every day. I have a mouth that spouts whatever feeling or emotion that pops into my head. I am extremely jealous and a little insecure. Although sometimes overly confident. I deal with pride. I want to be the pefect wife, mother and daycare provider, but not always for the right reasons. Sometimes I just want to hear people say, "Wow!You're awesome!"
The truth? Sometimes I make fantastic meals for a week. Homemade rolls, homemade mashed potatoes, soup, etc.... then I get sick of cooking and will make mac & cheeze, and have absolutely no ideas for a few days! ;P The truth? Sometimes I loose it with my kids and say really negative things to them.
The truth? My husband is much more self sacrificing and unselfish than I can ever hope to be.
I have a temper, I have a critical tongue, I have high expectations of myself and everyone around me. I can be petty and judgemental.

And yet....I am growing! Spiritually, emotionally, mentally, as a wife and mother. So I am going to start this blog to detail my growth, my struggles and also the humor every day that defines my life.

"However, if I fail to get my heart in order first, I am guaranteeing myself a misplaced attitude that day. Hands down. Without exception. If I don't spend time with Jesus, my reactions will be harsher, my perspectives a little more self-centered, my emotions a little more on edge and my tongue a little less grace-filled." Lysa Terkeurst - Prov 31 Ministries

Somehow, I managed to get 8 little bodies dressed, fed and wiped. Somehow I managed to impart some lessons about numbers, ABC's, time and God. Somehow we managed to play outside, clean up the toys, and have story time. Somehow lunch got on the table, be it PB & J! Somehow the dishes got into the dishwasher and a load of laundry found its way into the washer. And I am smiling as I begin this thing known as "blogging."

Soon my husband will get home and everything will get a little less crazy - or more crazy - depending on his mood! :-) Sometimes things get pretty rowdy!

PS - To those of you who are wondering where all those kiddos are - they do have some quiet time during the afternoon. Some nap and some read. All rest!